There are a couple of ideas here that might be helpful to break down and give you a little more security and clarity in your feelings. Discovering something that turns you on from watching porn or reading erotica can further complicate these attractions, as you might not know where you and your body fit into this sexual fantasy.
It can also feel confusing if your attraction doesn't seem to match with the "straight", "gay", or "bisexual" categories, or the ways you might see those presented in the media or online. People's attractions can change over time, and can be difficult to describe. Society sends us messages that only certain types of sexual attraction is "normal", when in reality everyone is different, and there is no "normal". Sexual attraction can feel really confusing, regardless of whether you identify as straight, gay, bisexual, queer, or anything else. I mean this isn't called 'bi-curious?' But I'm not interested in other girls.įirst of all, I think that it is wonderful that you seem very self-aware and in touch with your interests and desires. Except, a gay guy wouldn't do that with anyone unless it's another male. I'm jealous of that and I want that, but if I were ever to feel that same pleasure, I want a guy to give it to me. I just think guys honestly have get more pleasure with their parts than girls do with our parts. I get more pleasured thinking about how it feels to have another guy give me a blowjob if I had a penis and imagining a girl doing it turns me off. As I stated before, I'm a girl and I like my body, even my genitals, but when I watch gay porn, I touch myself and imagine I have a penis. Also I find it absolutely amazing watching a guy suck another guy on porn, it just seems so pleasuring. Most of the gay porn I watch are usually the ones where one of the guys initiate first and the other is reluctant at first. And recently, I find myself watching gay porn. This is weird, but even when I watch porn, on occasions I watch male and female, but most of the time.